After my post earlier, when i said it looked like it could snow but the puddles were wrong. . .
I went outside and it was sleeting! Now, normally a person would not be happy about sleet, but i'm not a terribly normal person. I am obsessed with winter. Actually.
And then, when I came out of the doctor's office, it was snowing! It has snowed all day and accumulated so much that the plows are out. And the snow made it into my novel.
The last scene is about the first snow. And I love it. It's wonderful. Winter is like, the ultra-best!
I've made it past 2K for the day, and we'll see if I make it to 3K, but my nano stats say I'm a day ahead again, so that's really all I can ask for, I suppose. Two days ahead would be lovely. Maybe by tomorrow.
I'm supposed to be meeting up with some other nano-ers at [local coffee shop] tomorrow and Wednesday afternoons, so maybe I'll be spurred on by their awesomeness and our collective word-churning power and get the count up there a bit. Maybe the plot will even come along a little.
I hate writing dialogue, also. I mean, I don't hate writing it, I just don't think I'm good at writing it.
I went to the doctor, as you know, and it turns out I do have a sinus infection, which is less than pleasant. It got me out of working today, but I had to pay a $20 co-pay at the doctor and then get two $30 prescriptions, one of which I refused. So I spent fifty dollars and didn't work so I didn't make any money either. I wouldn't feel bad about it if i felt like I'd gotten a lot of writing done. Now I just feel like I did an average amount.
And the PA at my doctor's office actually didn't ask me if I was feeling suicidal or homicidal for once, so that was a plus. She didn't ask me if I was seeing a pdoc or tdoc either, which was a plus. If I'd seen the actual doctor he would have asked me the latter, and the PA is always asking me the former, which is just awkward. It's not like I'd tell her if i were feeling that way.
And now it is dark outside. It is like winter. I love it. I'm having a fire tonight. And wearing a scarf indoors. And it's lovely.
I have written less than 200 words this morning, but it's saying something that I've written at all.
I'm home from work today because I have to go to the doctor. I'm sure my boss isn't too pleased, but that's not really my problem. I've been sick for a few weeks and it's time to actually be checked out. I think it's a sinus infection that has been getting incrementally worse.
Anyway (and I start far too many paragraphs with 'anyway') I've been playing around on the nano forums this morning, which I haven't really done much of yet besides my regional one. It's been nice. I've adopted some text messages to use in my novel and contributed some as well as some band names.
My FMC and MMC have finally met and now I have to sort out the details of what each of them have been up to for the past decade. Thanks to the forums, though, I've at least come to the conclusion that the two of them refer to MMC's sister as "the crocodile". That's not really fair to her, as she's a good person who's done a lot for MMC, but he resents her in a lot of ways, and it's a fun code name.
I really don't want FMC and her boyfriend to be together much longer, but I know they can't separate yet. And I don't know what will happen with their living arrangements when they do. I think FMC will stay in the apartment and her BF will move in with his friend from high school.
In other news, it looks very grey out and cold. I know it's spritzing rain, but from inside I can pretend it's snow. The sky has the right look and the light is right. I just can't look at puddles, which are quite obviously not snow-melt puddles. They are all wrong.
I wish snow would come.
On Saturday I went to the ski and snowboard expo and, because my father and I waited in the slow line even though an event guy said we had no chance of getting them, I got two tickets to Whiteface! Very cool. I also saw my cousin CD there selling helmets. He's a freestyle skier and Smith is one of his sponsors, so he was at their booth.
I also found out that I can ski for free at Belleayre on my Birthday, which I fully plan on doing. Unless our show in Dorset gets re-scheduled for that day. We have to cancel it because it unfotunately conflicts with day two of the hiring clinic at [resort i plan to work at].
I'm revisiting that decision, however, because it's never a bad plan to examine multiple options [ski resort #2] also has mid-week lessons and his having a job fair on Tuesday, so I might go up to that if someone can be persuaded to come with me, or I feel like going by myself. I'm also supposed to be meeting up with some nanowrimo people that afternoon at [local coffee shop].
The problem with working at [ski resort #2] is that I don't like to ski at [#2]. CD was injured at a competition there last year because their jumps were not in good condition (not that i'm blaming the mountain entirely, he should have been aware of that and noted it in his trick choice.) and taken out of commission for a while with a serious concussion. Then, later that week I got hurt there too. And I never get hurt skiing. It was on a blue square though which is typical. I never wipe out or anything on challenging terrain. It's always somewhere stupidly easy that I make a fool of myself. This was a situation where there was a very long sequence of rollers, however one of them did not roll, it just dropped off. And I was making sure not to get air off of them because it was night time and there was a lot of traffic on the trail and I didn't want to misjudge anything. In any case, i was sort of down in a low-ish stance and when the non-roller dropped away i rotated forward in the air and landed on my head and neck. I skied the rest of the night, but I couldn't work for a few days afterward. Then, my other cousin CP got hurt there the following night. Three injuries in the same family in a week. And I had always thought the conditions there were sub-par. It always makes me feel like a worse skier than I really am when I'm there. I don't know what it is. . .
Anyway, [#2] is slightly closer than [#1] and it's possible they pay more or have better schedules or their training doesn't conflict with anything. So I'm considering it even though I'm not a huge fan. I kind of grimace when I think about it, although I feel bad afterward.
Then there's [ski resort #3] which is so not a resort that it's ridiculous. This is where I learned to ski and I would enjoy teaching there if only because it's a place where those who don't have a lot of money can enjoy themselves on the snow and be introduced to an awesome lifetime sport. It's also the closest. It's not that fun to ski, but it's never injured me seriously either. And my best friend's family skis there. The problem is that their season is short, the trails are short (so getting free skiing there isn't such a prize) and the roads to get there from where I live are mostly back roads that can be rather traitorous in the winter. And I'm not exactly sure they have full-time instructors.
I'm still investigating other possibilities, but there doesn't seem anything else close enough that would be worth it. We shall see.
I'm sure I have more to say, but now I want to research some employment things, so I'm done for now.
Maybe I'll post about nanowrimo tomorrow. In short, it's going okay. I love my characters. I want to be in the story. It has very little plot.
It is also nice that there is a fire going in my fireplace right now. I cheated and used a fire log. I justify it because I wanted ambiance rather than heat, and a fire with actual logs generates quite a bit. Plus, a fire log is made of recycled materials. I'll pretend that material usage and general impact of the manufacturing, packaging and shipping don't more than negate that.
I got 1100 words written at my parents this afternoon and then typed in what I'd handwritten last night. I didn't write a whole ton besides that, but word-count-wise it still worked out. I do think i have a bit of a better handle on my story and characters now, though.
I love learning things about the plot and the characters as I write. I think it's the best thing about writing. The surprises. It would sound ridiculous to someone who doesn't write, I think, that you discover what the story is as you write it. I didn't know that my FMC worked at a social services agency or that she had a best friend named Alana and I didn't know that she generally considered herself practical and realistic rather than imaginative or artistic.
I also learned that my MMC isn't going to make an appearance for a bit longer because his sister is currently representing him in his contact with my FMC. My MMC is a lot more vulnerable than I realized and my FMC therefore needs to be a lot stronger, which she can be, she just doesn't know it yet.
Anyway, I could go on forever about my discoveries and what I've learned about my characters. I love it. And as I've said before, I'm far more into my characters than my plot. The plot, to me, always ends up being a vehicle for the reader to get to know the characters and for the characters to get to know each other and themselves. Now, when I say reader, it's purely hypothetical, as there is no reader besides myself. So perhaps I should say writer instead.
I also learned that another one of my real-life friends is doing nanowrimo, so now there are four people I actually know who I also know are doing nanowrimo. For all I am aware of there could be many more. Two of them are actually in my area, which is cool. And one is a state away and one is on another continent!
I am hoping work goes quickly tomorrow and somehow I'm done early so I can write. I want to go out somewhere and write because it's generally more pleasant to me. At the very least I have a library book to return in [childhood hometown], so maybe I'll write somewhere in the vicinity. If there's anywhere with outlets. It's not exactly the sort of town where people go out with their laptops to do work or 'surf the web' or have business meetings. It's more of a meet up with the 'good old boys' or play some quick-draw sort of place.
And I'm getting sick of the available establishments in CP(current town where I life). Starbucks doesn't have much atmosphere, Panera has poor outlet placement, Borders is always full or the only seats available are in the middle of the room, which I dislike, [local coffee shop] is good, but i spent most of nano '09 there, and [other local coffee shop] is too fancy and staying-for-a-meal oriented for lengthy loitering of the writing type. Oh, and the library has a strange ringing noise that no one else seems to notice but i find terribly distracting and headache-precipitating.
So i'm still looking for a place. I'll keep you updated.
I think I like it when nothing is going on. Then I can do whatever I want. I like having things to do, of course, and I get myself in charge of or involved in way to many things, but it's still nice when nothing is going on.
This is not one of those times.
And for some reason, my ears hurt a lot even though i wore ear plugs through most of work today. I think it's the sinus issue aggravating everything.
Anyway, I'm trying to upload tracks to Bandcamp right now, and it takes entirely too long. I'll be lucky if I get one album up today. And by 'one album' I mean our EP which is only five songs long. That's better than nothing though, and I can advertise that it's available online.
I'm going to upload our newest album last, because it hasn't been officially released and its official release is only going to be online. So I figure that should be the last to go up. I'm thinking about making a bandcamp site for myself as well and putting up my old album and my new hymn one when it's done. anyway.
I wrote 1100 words for nanowrimo so far today. I want to get more done tonight, and I'm hoping I can convince DH to go out to open mic even though I want to stay home so that I can write and go to bed really early (i'm very tired. Think I have a sinus infection.) I'm enjoying writing this story even though it only has the beginnings of a plot.
Work was fine, although maybe just because I know I'm quitting. Quitting as soon as I have an income from another source. I have to get a bit more info on when exactly I'll start getting paid at [ski resort] before I go taking myself out of the employment scene, as it were. I'm
thinking it might very well be the last week of November. But it also might not be until January.
Gosh, my ears hurt. This is really quite rude. I don't understand it and I feel as though I'm doing them permanent damage. I truly hope it's related to my sinus situation.
Okay, track one uploaded and track two did not. Trying track two again.
I have to teach Sunday School this weekend. I have no idea what the lesson is. Well, I know it has to do with David, but I'm not sure besides that. I'll figure it all out Saturday night like I usually do. Sunday is also Charge Conference, at which we learn lots of things about church bureaucracy and I attempt to get some useful information out of the D.S. regarding my pastor candidacy.
Oh, and Saturday I'm going to the doctor as well as the ski and snowboard expo.
All I want to do is avoid working tomorrow. But I know that's not really an option. There's this whole needing to make money business that I could really do without. But there you are. It's just the state of things.
I'll try to have a somewhat more coherent post later, if possible. I'm very distracted by my terribly hurting ears and the fact that I'm typing on a different keyboard than normal. Very different. I find it hard to type on. I am spending so much time thinking about typing that I am not thinking about writing, and so this is a scattered and confusing post, i fear.
In any case, I'm signing off. See you later DW world.
Work tomorrow: I don't want to call in because I'm planning on quiting soon and I want to go out on at least a mediocre note, which although unlikely, may still be possible. However, I have been up most of the night at this point and it's not really safe to lead children through freezing cold weather along a major thoroughfare at rush-hour (EVER!) when you haven't had sleep. Really, I'm not comfortable with doing that at all, and even before the lack of sleep happened I was considering calling my boss and telling her I needed to meet them at the field trip location because I didn't want child death on my conscience when a winter hat blew off a three-year-old and she ran into the road to get it, was hit by a hummer and rushed to the hospital, which took over an hour due to it being 20 miles away and rush-hour.
Then there's that "I'm not a monitor, I'm a music teacher" business. I am convinced she will have me just covering people's breaks tomorrow afternoon, and I plan on telling her, straight up, that it's not my job. Unless I call in. With no good excuse. Except that I'm tired.
Oh, bah! Thinking about this is just going to keep me up even longer!
In unrelated news. . .On the NaNoWriMo front I've started writing my MMC in first person in the form of his Journal. Why can I never stick with one POV? Even if I don't use it in the final version, it's at least helping me get a handle on his past, his personality and his character in general. And it's fun. He's angsty. And i'm pretty angsty right now. As if you couldn't tell.
But what to do? I am indecisive. And we'll see how it all shakes out. Perhaps I'll just tell my boss I need to leave after the field trip because I didn't think I'd be needed and made an appointment for then.
Quick, I'd better make an appointment!
When I refuse to do the job of a playground monitor all day instead of my real job, which is music teacher, I just might get canned.
But I'm really not worried about it.
According to my mother, I'm still in demand around the public school district as a substitute and I have applied to teach at [ski resort] this winter as well as had an extensive conversation with the snow sports director.
Words to my boss: Your school is a joke. It is more like a holding pen. I thought it was different.
I think she might say something like "You're letting the children down". And if she does I will either a) not respond, or b) say "And you've let me down".
I'd write more about this, but It's been ongoing and is very upsetting and I've already talked about it to my DH and both parents separately today, so going through everything a fourth time isn't really on my to-do list.
In any case, NaNoWriMo is so more important to me than all that crap right now. And so is getting on the D.S. (District Superintendent for my district of the United Methodist Church) about rescheduling my Local Pastor candidacy meeting.
Aaah! Too much going on! And I haven't been 100% in the brain waves lately either. And I forgot to take my lovely medication last night/this morning.
Boo. Maybe tomorrow will be better? I'm doubtful.
The outlet location at panera is dreadful. Most of the tables I'd actually like to sit at are nowhere near plugs, and even if they are, a cord would create a trip-wire. Maybe the real problem is my completely useless computer battery more than it is the location of the plugs though. It's up for grabs I suppose.
I'm going over to my parents' house this afternoon to work on some band stuff (my DH and I have an acoustic duo). I'm uploading all our recordings to www.bandcamp.com which is sure to take forever, mostly because they only accept files in lossless formats, such as FLAC and WAV.
If I'm doing what I should I'll get writing done while all that stuff uploads. And it could take a while because I have four albums worth to get online.
Maybe I'll actually talk to my boss today about where the music program is headed. I hope so, but I also don't hope so. I am so uninterested in work right now. It will probably remain this way for the rest of November due to nanowrimo, but maybe my proposed improvements will help.
In any case, I have to shut down the computer, use the bathroom (overshare!) and go to work. So I'm off.
I teach music at a Christian School. We just started the program this year, and I designed it entirely myself. After two months, it needs a little tweaking though. I just hope she goes for it, and implements the changes quickly. I'm also pretty sure my supplies were never ordered.
But anyway, I've reaffirmed my previous conclusion that plot is totally secondary to me compared with character development. I never meant that to be the case, and I'd like to be better at writing action, but It just hasn't happened.
I'm also a lot better at writing in the first person than the third person, which I never expected. I was pretty against first person for a long time, reading and writing-wise. But, obviously, I've gotten over that. I might end up switching this year's NaNo novel to first person eventually. I switched last year's back and forth a few times and then settled on a combo of first person for current day and third person for dream/vision/back-story scenes.
Last year's novel, Octaves was totally fictional and the story was not inspired by my own life. This year's however, Finding You, was inspired by my own life events, although it's not at all autobiographical.
My own experience of having spent time in a psychiatric hospital and meeting someone there who I connected with and then lost touch with is the inspiration for Finding You. The main characters are totally themselves, however, and their reasons for being in the hospital, their personalities and their families are not based on myself or the person I used to know.
Another difference between Octaves and Finding You is that Octaves took place in fictional cities, towns, etc. Finding You, on the other hand, takes place in real-life settings, and it takes place in the area I live in.
So, between these two things, I worry that people I know (If I ever let them read any of it, after many, many drafts) will think the FMC (female main character) is a fictionalization of me and that her significant other is a fictionalization of my husband, and on and on it goes. But, as I said, they're not.
One might say this is pointless worry, but I'm also a songwriter, and people like to read into my lyrics all the time. In the end, I've only written 2500 words so far, probably no one will ever read it, and I know it's fiction, so I'm going to stop worrying for the moment.
And now i'm going to go see if the NaNoWriMo site is working.
I don't know, but I was thinking about it as I sit here at the bar with DH, drinking coffee and eating pizza as he watches the Dolphins game.
So I updated my status asking if anyone still uses it. I few people left mocking responses, which was fine with me. It wasn't anyone that matters to me, and if it were, their mattering meter would have dropped at that point, anyway.
Then a friend of mine who I haven't seen or talked to in years responded. As it happens, she's someone I really like a lot and wish I had stayed in touch with. She said that she now uses DreamWidth for the most part. So, respecting her choice as having good reason behind it, I checked DreamWidth out, and it seemed good.
So now I have signed up and this is my inaugural post.
I am very excited that there's a nano_writers community! I'm also excited about common_nature. I'm hoping to be more involved in communities here than I ever was at LJ. I'd like to write openly about things I couldn't on the public blog I have for my music pursuits or on twitter or FB or whatever. But I also want to connect with people I connect with, if you know what I mean.
So, we'll see. I wish DreamWidth success, and I hope I can be a part of that.